priceless !

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

In the name of Allah, the Most Beneficent, the Most Merciful.

Dengan penuh rasa rendah diri, saya mula menulis entry ini dengan mata berkaca.

*tears falling down my cheeks while putting these thoughts and experience into words*

The last 3 days, I actually went to a talaqqi or in BM we called it as "daurah ilmiah".

What is "daurah ilmiah"?

"Daurah" or "dauroh" means meetings and we stay at a place for few days. okay ?

"Ilmiah" means "ilmu" or knowledge. but the focus was of course religious knowledge. *grin*

* Definisi dari google *

Jadi, apa yang priceless nya di sini? Banyak sangat!

Semoga ukhwah yang terbina selama 4 hari ini membawa kita ke Jannatul Firdaus, syurga tertinggi, di mana kita berkumpul semuanya dan juga tempat di mana Baginda nabi besar kita, Saidina Muhammad s.a.w akan tinggal nanti. Hum. Mahu nggak ? Siapa yang tak mahu, inshaAllah biiznillah !

Lemme tell you something priceless. 

Hendak dijadikan cerita, one night, a sohabat BBM-ed me.

"Hey jom join talaqqi!"

And i was like, what is talaqqi? Sounds very serious and memang untuk ostad ostajah je. Tapi hati sanubari memberontak nak pergi. Serius. Tak tipu.


So, i just gave my name blablabla and i joined them. But i was without friends *yang kenal pun yang BBM tu jelah, itu pun muslimin*. went to MATIN (Maahad Tahfiz Al Imam An Nawawi) di Kangar, Perlis with a sincere and pure heart. Ingin menuntut ilmu agama yang mahal itu.

To cut it short, many things i've learnt from this daurah. Ilmu yang telah direkodkan di dalam buku notaku terlalu mahal harganya bagiku. I can say some things as revisions mcm area solat and wudu'. Mcm kita pernah belajar masa sekolah dulu. Tapitapitapi, banyak lagi ilmu yang kita tak tahu serta diselitkan juga kisah-kisah baginda besar nabi, Rasulullah s.a.w dan para sahabat. Memang mahal ! PRICELESS! 

Betul, makin banyak kita belajar, makin banyak yang kita tak tahu ! Allahu Rabbi!

Furthermore, solat berjemaah yang dilakukan di MATIN and the people surrounding were very touching. Entah sebab apa nak touchingtouching masa solat berjemaah is unknown. Hanya Allah yang tahu rahsia di hati yang tuan punya badan dia sendiri tak paham sebenarnya. Hinanya saya, hati sendiri pun tidak pandai tafsir. Allahu Rabbi. THIS IS PRICELESS. 

Ya muqallib al-qulub, thabbit qalbi ‘ala ta’atik. Ameen. 
~ O mover of hearts, make my heart firm upon your obedience ~

The sisters were so nice and caring. baik hati. I did not feel like a stranger at all. Yala, dtg tanpa kwn kan. But that was not a big deal for me. Mcm lah tak boleh dpt kawan yang bebaik lagi solehah masa daurah kan. hehe. :D THIS IS PRICELESS.


Nak tahu siapa tok guru saya? jengjengjeng.

He is Habib Umar Khaleed Hassan al-Madihij. Siapa kenal? Angkat hidung ! hehe. Seorang warga Indonesia,   Pimpinan Pesantren Nurul Taufiq Pasuruwan. and lebih mengujakan hati ini lagi, beliau merupakan Ahlul Bait, keturunan Baginda nabi besar kita, Rasulullah s.a.w. Haaaa haaaa. So i was so excited to grab the knowledge that he has from this daurah. Seorang alim ulama lagi. Jadi hati yang merindukan Tuhannya yang mana yang tidak teruja dengan jemputan ke daurah ini ? Haaa cakap cakap. :D THIS IS PRICELESS!

apa lagi yang priceless ? ILMU ILMU ILMU ! of course. Jangan ditanya. Banyak sangat ilmu yang saya dpt di sini. Nasihat demi nasihat diberikan kepada jiwa yang tandus, hati yang berkarat dan diri yang hina ini. Dapat bersama ulama di dalam taman-taman syurga itu merupakan satu rahmat yang sangat PRICELESS bagi diri ini. Allah opened my heart to go and learn, meeting new friends yang pastinya sisters yang solehah, tok guru yang alim. Ya Allah, besar sungguh rahmatMu ini ya Allah ! Terima kasih ya Allahhh ! Semoga semua ilmu yang saya kutip directly from the Tok Guru Habib Khaleed and indirect lessons from sisters and people surrounding mendapat barokah. Ameen ya rabb ! THIS IS SUPER PRICELESS! 

I admit that saya tak sehebat sisters yang lain jika dibandingkan dari semua segi. Dari segi pakaian, akhlak, ibadah and ilmu. Memang nggak bisa dibandingkan dengan sisters yang lain. Tetapi I always want to be a better Muslimah, yang sentiasa mencintaiNya dan dicintai olehNya. Ameen ya rabbal alamin.

Nak tahu lagi ?

Seluruh duit Presiden Amareka si Barrack Obama pun tak dapat beli apa yang telah saya lalui 3 hari yang lalu tahu ? 
Seluruh harta Donald Terump tu pun tak bisa membayar harga apa yang telah saya lalui 3 hari yang lalu tahu ?

Kerana itu semua PRICELESS! Mana bisa dibayar dengan harta atau duit.Nggak mungkin bisa.

Semoga semua ilmu yang saya dapat itu dapat diamalkan dengan penuh istiqamah. Ameen ya Rabbal Alamin.

Nasihat Imam Al-Ghazali dalam kitabnya, Ayyuhal Walad (Wahai anakku yang tercinta),

" Ayyuhal walad,

      Janganlah engkau menjadi orang yang muflis pada amalnya dan janganlah engkau menjadikan  
      dirimu itu kosong daripada perkara yang berfaedah dan yakinlah bahawasanya semata-mata 
      ilmu itu belum dapat menjamin keselamatanmu di akhirat kelak"

Harapanku yang sangat besar agar pertemuan ini belum ada perpisahannya lagi. Let us make du'a to Allah. Semoga kita dapat berjumpa lagi di taman-taman firdaus, sematamata mercari mardhatillahNya. Ameen ya rabbal alamin.

Sejujurnya, saya rindu mereka, rindu dengan suara tok guru, rindu dengan suasana penuh ketenangan tersebut. Allahu Rabbi !

alhamdulillah. al-fatihah.

kalau kira-kira, dah seminggu hari Tok Wan pergi meninggalkan kami. sedih ini masih berbaki. tetapi, ku kuatkan hati demi hidup ini. bukan apa, di akhirat nanti kita hidup kembali. di situ bermula segalanya.

hanya doa yang dapat dititipkan buat Tok Wan di sana. aku bakal menyusul Tok Wan. kami semua bakal menyusul Tok Wan. selamat tinggal buat di dunia.

genap sudah umur 21. alhamdulillah, masih diberikan kesempatan untuk bernafas dan bertaubat. terima kasih Ya Allah. alhamdulillahhhh.

lepas mengaminkan semua doadoa yang dikirim oleh sohabats di FB, Twitter, BBM, SMS, MMS dan tidak kurang juga yang call diri ini, membalas semua ucapan "selamat hari Tua", aku mencari kesempatan untuk menulis di blog buat seketika.

bukan apa, rasa mcm lama tak menulis di sini.

kekadang terfikir juga, umur dah 21, tetapi apa sumbanganku untuk agama Islam?

apa ya ? ada ke tidak ? 

fikir sejenak. mulut diam. otak ligat berfikir, mencari cari.

hummm. mungkin perlu mencari lagi kot. *serious mode*

oh ya btw, syukran, thank you, terima kasih, merci beaucoup, danke atas semua doa-doa kalian. saya sendiri berdoa agar kalian semua dirahmati dan sentiasa berada di bawah penjagaanNya. :)

semoga aku mampu menjadi wanita solehah, taat pada suruhanNya, mencintai kekasihNya iaitu Nabiku, Muhammad saw, mengamalkan sunnah baginda Rasulullah saw, berpegang pada kompas hidup paling lengkap dan padu di dunia iaitu Al-Quran, menjadi penyejuk mata dan hati buat mak dan abah, kakak yang penyayang terhadap adiknya, seorang sohabat yang baik terhadap sohabatsnya (ini pengaruh seorang sohabat, "sohabats" = English plus Arab , hihi), pencinta setiap makhlukNya. ameen ya rabbal alamin.

"Wahai Tuhan yang membolakbalikkan hati, tetapkanlah kami dalam agama dan ketaatan kepada Mu".

ameen, ameen, ameen ya Rabbal alamin. :)

the time has come, i guess

Assalamualaikum.
i just want to share something which has to do with emotions,love marriage and so on. (sambil dengar lagu Ombak Rindu.hihihi)
since ramai yang post status about getting married, or engaged, or anything that got to do with the 'fitrah' or nature of human beings.

pernah seseorang itu memberitahu saya, perkara jodoh ini sangat subjektif dan mmg kita tidak nampak. apa yang kita buat adalah berusaha dan teruskan berdoa agar kita dikurniakan jodoh yang kita mahu atau hendak.
seseorang itu juga berkata, seandainya kita suka pada seseorang itu, dengan tujuan untuk menjadikan seseorang itu sbg isteri/suami, kena lafazkan.

"sudikah awak menjadi isteri/pendamping hidup saya ?"

itu dah dikira bertunang klu mengikut syariat. klu kita berkenalan dengan tujuan hendak menjadikan seseorang itu sbg isteri/suami, katanya boleh. itu dah dikira sebagai bertunang mengikut syariat. klu mengikut adat, keluarga lelaki pergi merisik/meminang perempuan tersebut.

kata seseorang itu lagi, "HIDUP INI BIARLAH UTAMAKAN SYARIAT, KEMUDIAN BARU ADAT"

jadi, sy yakin ramai yang dah bertunang di luar sana. :))

seseorang itu juga bertanya, "bila giliran nurulsufi pula?"

tiada jawapan khusus yang diberikan. hanya mampu memberi "smiley icon" dekat bbm tersebut.

membiarkan soalan dibalas dengan grafik senyuman.

satu lagi tips yang dikongsikan oleh seseorang itu jugak,

kalau kita meminati seseorang tersebut, malu hendak menyatakan isi hati, mahu istikharah terlebih dahulu agar tidak salah memilih, masa berdoa (after solat)  itu, khususkan nama si dia tersebut. kalau tahu nama penuh lagi bagus lah kan. kita berdoa sesungguhnya, dengan penuh rasa rendah hati, nyatakan hasrat di hati. insyaAllah,Allah akan memberikan jawapannya. iya ?

maklumlah, di usia begini, ke mana-mana pun org asyik bertanya. kepada yang sudah ada jawapan, teruskan. kepada yang masih mencari dan memperbaiki diri, teruskan. yakinlah, sedang kita memperbaiki diri di sini, si dia juga sedang memperbaiki diri di sana. sedang kita menjaga hati di sini, yakinlah si dia juga sedang menjaga hati di sana. sedang mengukuhkan hubungan dengan Allah di sini, yakinlah si dia juga sedang berbuat benda yang sama. Allah itu Maha Adil. jadi, sama-sama lah kita mencantikkan diri dan si dia di sana sedang meng-handsome-kan diri dengan bertaqwa kepada Allah. berdoalah kepada Allah agar sentiasa menjaga si dia yang kita nanti penuh kesabaran dan sentiasa berada di bawah lembayung rahmatNya. tak ke sweet gitu? kita tak tahu pun siapa dia, tetapi kita selalu mendoakan kesejahteraan beliau. kesejahteraan mak abah, kawan-kawan, jiran-jiran, cikgu-cikgu, saudara seIslam pun jangan lupa didoakan yaaa. hihiii.

jadi kepada yang masih mencari, pesan sahabat saya yang seorang ini, teruskan mencari sambil memperbaiki diri. katanya, nak memilih suami ni, perempuan yang kena cerewet. kena cerewet untuk memilih imam. sbb hati perempuan ini lemah dan perlu dibimbing. jadi, perlu cerewet, kena pilih yang betolbetol. bukan setakat ke-handsome-man atau kecomelan si dia sahaja, tetapi kena consider juga tahap ke-Islaman beliau tersebut. tgk dia ni selalu pergi surau tak, siapa kawan beliau, siapa idola beliau, (Justin Bieber ke UAI? hihihi), mcm mana beliau bergaul dengan org lain, eii banyak benda lah kena consider. tetapi satu benda yang beliau pesan lagi, janganlah ingat awak ni nak kahwin dengan malaikat yang tiada salah dan dosa. awak kahwin dengan manusia, yang sudah pasti ada dosa. jadi, sama-sama memperbaiki diri dan yakin dengan doa yang kita pinta dengan Allah. have utter faith in HIM. baru betul !

kepada seseorang tersebut, syukran saya ucapkan. banyak betol benda yang saya pelajari dari beliau. alhamdulillah Allah temukan saya dengan seorang sahabat yang saya kenal dalam masa yang sangat singkat dan sangat kebetulan pada masa tersebut. sama-sama kita memperbaiki diri, perjuangan masih belum selesai...

nak bercinta, bercintalah sampai ke Syurga !

 

 kita bercinta sampai ke syurga lah ya ? :)

two in one

Assalamualaikum. Malas nak bebel pepanjang. So straight to the point, this entry is mainly about 2 big events happened in my life recently. SBE and raya.

Bagi yang wondering 'what the heck is SBE', sila masuk Institut Pendidikan Perguruan. Anda akan tahu dan alaminya sendiri. So SBE kali ni I admit mmg best even though benda yang dicari tak jumpa. Of course assignment Moral. Mmg tak jumpa langsung apa yang dikehendaki. (+_+'). But one thing yang nak dikongsi di sini ialah cikgu-cikgi SK Seri Perdana yang sangat best. They are the best . Firstly, sbb tak sombong. tetapi during first day tu, masa nak lapor diri before assembly tu, I met Puan Rohana (PK 1), the very first question she asked me during that early morning was "Are you really interested in teaching?". And of course my answer was a big "No". So she started bebel and nagging because Im not interested in teaching. But at last, truth was revealed. Dia pun tak interested in teaching world.  I was like "What the heck? (dlm hati) dia bebel about me not interested in teaching but at the same time dia pun dua kali lima. So i sat on the chair, waiting for my long time no see friend to come and maybe other new friends to come (apa ayat aku ni). She even asked a letter from IPBA. Dia tanya sbb my long time no see friend (Ain) punya IPG sent her a letter, informing that she will come and do her SBE here. Mcm termalu jugak sbb IPBA tak hantar surat pun kan. Maybe sbb ramai and they could not cope with that (lame). So bersembang and i told her what i want, but she said i chose the wrong school. Sbb sekolah ni taklah bermoral sngt. I mean subjek moral taklah ditekankan sngt. So i said its okay (padahal cuak) maybe i can just talk to the cikgu moral and kaunselor. Then, Ain came in. Lega rasa ! And loceng pun berbunyi tanda waktu perhimpunan. Jadi i followed the teacher tetapi at the same time, saat melangkah keluar dari pejabat, mata terlihat seorang yang handsome pakai songkok. I was like ni mesti buat SBE jugak ni. Smpai di perhimpunan as usual, diperkenalkan. So yang handsome pakai songkok td tu mmg buat SBE. Syameer. Lawak okay. Masa diperkenalkan, semua bebudak plus cikgu mcm "woaahhhh" tgk kehandseman beliau. I heard a teacher said "Eii tak puas tgk muka ustad (they called him ustad) ni dari jauh. kena p duk dekat sikit kot baru puas". Ya Allah, sampai mcm tu sekali penangan hang Syameer (nama dia Syameer, YDP IPG Perlis). But he was very cool. And after pehimpunan, cikgucikgi pun berkumpul and berbincang mengenai cuti. I must tell that cikgu pun perangai sebijik mcm budak. Me ain syameer were not giving a damn about the cuti at first, tetapi bila dah masuk bilik mesyuarat (tempat kami bertiga bermastautin), kami mula bersembang hebat psl cuti sehari tersebut. Haha. At first, ingatkan ustad ni sombong. Sbb pengalaman lalu yang bersuara. But he is not sombong. Dia ramah. Potpetpotet jugak orangnya. He is the son of s/u peperiksaan sekolah tu (Cikgu Jamil). And jugak bekas student skolah tu. Cehh patotla. So first day mmg super best sbb Puan Rohana said she will give me some info for my moral assignment. So okaylah kan. Daripada takdak langsung. Jadi kami bertiga pun pergilah ke bilik mesyuarat and tolong Cikgu Jamil (Syameer's dad) asingkan exam paper. Sambil asingkan tu, bersembanglah kami bertiga and of course topik utamanya ialah dunia pendidikan dan dunia guru pelatih. Banyak benda yang disembangkann termasuklah exam, BIG, SBE, KSSR, LINUS, course masingmasing, IPG masingmasing, some lecturers, skor A, family and banyak lagilah. Ain and me buat jejak kasih la kan. 9 years tak jumpa, but we contact each other within that 9 years. Mcmmcm cerita yang dikeluarkan and Syameer mmg akan menyampuk. Guru besar (GB) mmg agak garang and strict. Tapi okaylah. After asingkan semua exam paper tersebut, kami pun duduk and sambung bersembang. Topik yang lebih kurang sama. out of sudden, Puan Rohana and GB entered the meeting room and start lah bersembang.GB talked about Rosmah and Najib. And also kejatian diri anak Melayu yang semakin pupus. The same with Puan Rohana. Perbincangan menjadi a bit serious compared to only 3 of us. Mmg serius. Tapi best, berilmu and bermanfaat ! mmg best !

So second and third day kami berjalan-jalan sambil snap pictures yang best untuk disimpan sebagai kenangan. Masuk class, maen games with the students. I admit students SK Seri Perdana mmg cute mute ye. Bukan mute bisu. Itu exaggeration. Sangat comel. Cecomelcecomel ! They gave us cooperation and participated well. Mmg tak rancang pun activities, semua spontan but it went well. Phew. Last day ada Ihya' Ramadhan. Ain and me mmg tgk je sepanjang program berjalan. Syameer buat slide show, a bit of tazkirah and also menyanyi. One thing i realised about him is dia mmg agak ganas orangnya. Serius ganas. Dengan students lah maksudnya. After Ihya', three of us mengasingkan diri daripada majlis sebentar, pergi duduk kat satu laluan sebelah padang sambil angin menyapa and sembangsembang lagi. Since dah last day kan, kami pun makin rancak bersembang. Pasal rayalah, pasal puasa lah but still ada topik dunia pendidikan tersebut. After bersembang, we exchanged something and pulang ke rumah msing-masing. Of course pergi salam dulu dengan cikgucikgi yang sportingsporting tersebut. satu je benda tak suka pasal SBE. Ada sorang cikgu ni suruh kami complete her assignments. Bukan satu, tapi DUA ! phewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww ! Takpa, ikhlaskan hati walaupun sakit hati.

So raya this year agak laen sikit. Sempat pakai baju raya walaupun sebuk kalah chef kat dapuq. Sbb ramai sangat adik beradik yang datang bertandang. Mmg tak menang tangan ahhhhh ! Tak smpat pun nak bergambar bagai. After solat subuh, terus ja mintak maaf dekat mak abah tokwan tok. Jadi, no raya photos lah ye. 2nd day raya, semua adek beradek berkumpul and buat majlis tahlil. Seekor kambing berjaya ditumbangkan and sepuluh ekor ayam berjaya dimasak dan dimakan. But time kambing tu kena sembelih, dia teriak and I was like tersentap hati sedih. Dua kali dia teriak but buatbuat tak dengar. Sedih taw. Mcm boleh rasa ja betapa sakitnyaaaaaaa kena sembelih. Lepas masakmasak, kami pun makanmakan. Then snap pictures satu family besaq and family kecil kecilan. Best jugak raya taun ni. Cuma no photos dengan baju raya. Sedih bro. Takpa, next time ada lagi. :D

I hope its not too late nak ucap Salam Ei-Dul Fitr buat semua kawankawan di seluruh dunia. Haha ! Mintak maaf banyakbanyak andai pernah tersinggung dengan kata atau my actions. Bak kata, eh bak nyanyian lagu Najwa Latif, kosong-kosong ya. Comel jugak sebenarnya Najwa ni kan? Saya harap anda semua maafkan saya and of course saya maafkan anda semua. (aicehhhh)

                                             Boleh teka kan mana satu GB SK Seri Perdana?



till then, Assalamualaikum !

awesome !

salam semuanya !

just came back from Cameron Highland for BIG . hee, memang membina insan guru betollah BIG kali nie. camping timetime hujan, it was cold as hell (sbb ustaz Azman ckp kesejukan ialah seksa yang paling dahsyat di neraka nanti ) and semua org tak berpisah dengan sweater masing-masing. sejuk tahap dewa. khemah bocor di sana sini but we were cool about that. biasalah nama pun bercamping kan, takkan nak khemah mcm five star hotel pulak. so buatbuat tak nampak psl kebocoran di sana sini and we were wet with the rain all the times. sampai makanan pun sejuk. burrrrr. but i admit it was awesome sbb tak pernah camping time hujan. tak pernah bukak khemah time hujan lebat gila smpai kena berpayung ber-raincoat bagai. tak pernah makan di bawah langit yang sedang menangis and mmg dapat kuah lebih. haha ! senang cerita, this is an unforgettable memory of BIG !

on other unrelated thing, Ramadhan sudah tiba ! so to all Muslims, selamat menjalani ibadah puasa and selamat terawih! mintak maaf buat semua kenalan if i did any mistakes to you. semoga Ramadhan kali ini membawa seribu makna buat kita semua . let's build stronger relationship with our creator , Allah s.w.t. pintu syurga terbuka seluas-luasnya and pintu neraka ditutup. so, marilah kita berdoa and memohon keampunan sebanyak yang mungkin. semoga bertemu dengan Lailatul Qadar. ameennnnn ya Rabbal a'lamin !

:)

hello half July !

Assalamualaikum ! masyaAllah dah sampai pertengahan July nie ! Ramadhan is approaching veryyyy soon.
been very busy here. susah btol nak online skrg nie. susah bha. siang petang malam duk meeting. meeting BIG lah, itulah, inilah. this is what we called as student's life .

kerja nanti lagi penat kot ?

                                                                  my choral speaking piece

will be going to Cameron Highland soon ! yeay ! im hoping for a good and awesome BIG for this semester. may Allah bless our journey and activities that we have planned for the kids and society there. ameen.

new semester, new me ?

                                                                     a bit blueish. 

awww blogger has new features. i just realized that.

been quite busy lately. with the new schedule coming in and whatsoever. while writing this my roommate gave a bar of chocolate from Langkawi Island which im not sure what's its brand. very yummy. me like it !

the result is out. as expected. whatever it is, alhamdullilah to you Allah. alhamdulillah. there's a beautiful rainbow that you created for me behind all these sadness and frustrations.i pray you'll give me some strength to move on  and work harder this semester. ameen.

the schedule is quite crazy for this semester where we have few subjects but with more credit hours. haih. why la why ? it's getting tougher nowadays to be a teacher. yeah bukan senang kan. whoever says to be a teacher is an easy pathway, i'll kick your ass.

Ramadhan is approaching and honestly, tak sabar pulak. but im not sure whether i would be able to cope with the activities in the college as kawad kaki lah, class as usual *i guess*. harapharap boleh melalui Ramadhan kali ini dengan sempurna, seeking for His blessings and Jannah ameen. insyaAllah jika umur masih ditakdirkan panjang. 

i think that'd be all. A'salam !

a bit of freedom

it is holiday season. yeah, isn't that terrific? away from IPBA and its rules for about three weeks. away from colleagues or a term which i prefer, 'friends'.

 it is the moment i am free to do anything that i really love. perfect time to purchase some new novels, reading up friends' entries, watching movies,eating homemade food *of course the best cooking in the world,which is mum's cooking*, meeting siblings, lying on the bed at all time, cycling, tweet and of course the list goes on. not to mention, a perfect time to reflect everything that i have gone through and done at IPBA. both academically and personal things. academically, i guess everything went fine except for my Classroom Management component. a bit tough. assignment didn't go well. am quite upset about that. nothing new on personal side. more mature, i guess? hihihi !

a month ++ to go before Ramadhan approaches. can't wait. Allahumma baariklana fii rajabin wa sya'baana wa ballighna ramadhaan.Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, berkatilah kami pada bulan Rejab dan Syaaban dan sampaikan (hidupkan) kami ke bulan (sehingga) Ramadhan. ameen.

on other unrelated topic. holiday = weddings. happy marriage and congratulations ! :)

maybe that's all for this time update. bye !

before the sun goes down.

so before the sun goes down, i'd like to put few words here.

KOT has been done, so chin up to Blue / Laksamana warriors. thanks to mama Madam Z . gila semangat. :)

few hurtful things have happened and i don't like it.

mmg cuaca pun sangat tak best sbb hujan most of the times. the same thing happened recently. makin dewasa makin serabut pulak rasa.

hmmm. nothing more.

random post.

been very busy these few past weeks. such hell weeks. balik class bukak lappie buat tutorial buat assignment. sent off stupid rejected drafts to lecturers and had extra lectures.

BIG was a good shot. but well well well.

SBE was a good one too. rasanya lagi best duduk di sekolah compared to belajar di IPBA. so, i told my mum;

"mak, IPBA bores me. sekolah is the best place for me. yeah, actually i don't to go back."

she smiled. and my dad interrupted our sweet mother-daughter conversation.

"abeh, mcm mana nak mengajaq kalau tak belajaq. belajaq mmg susah."

i just smiled. malas nak argue lagi. if only he knew my super boring life at IPBA, i bet he will just agree with me.

so, i met 4 new friends during SBE. 4 trainee teachers form IPDA. (IPG Darulaman) which is located at Jitra. they are all four grown men. 2 ustazs and 2 science teachers. practicum teachers, 3rd year. so it was super awkward when i didnt have any SBE friends yet i met 4 practicum teachers. they were nice, but what i've been informed is that they are the best students at IPDA. heeee. i didnt have the chance to sembang panjang with them because they looked super busy with their work, but at least we had that littlelittle conversations. the teachers were super awesome even though initially, they were like @*&#(#@ ! during the last day, barulah nak berbaikbaik. the students are cute. mcm artis pun ada.

so, that's it for my SBE.

as for the assignments, i foresee my dark future grades. arghh. my place (katil,meja) was sooooo messy with all the teaching aids and blablabla. urghh. can't wait to see my practicum life. uhhh.







yeahyeah. really can't wait for practicum. avada kedavra !

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happy new year ! hoping for beautiful and awesome 2012 !

penakut !

tajuk ini sememangnya kaitannya 100% about me. ;))

when i was a kid, like 4 or 5 years old, i have phobias. i can't look directly at other's eyes and blood. err, actually sampai skrg tak boleh sangat tgk darahdarah nie. sertamerta darah gemuruh. masa kecikecik dulu ada satu iklan. iklan pasal penderaan kanak-kanak. i can still remember it. iklan tu, macam konon-konon ada seorang ayah or ibu yang rotan sorang budak sampai budak tue berdarah-darah. there was one fine day, adalah iklan tue kat tv. then, saya berlari-lari (my mom was cooking at that time) menyorok belakang pintu. my mom asked me, kenapa nie ? then, saya ckp, tak suka tgk darah. sampai sekarang tak boleh tgk darah yang banyak. sebab tue saya tak boleh tgk video accident yang sampai putusputus kakikepalabadan. i just can't. rasa mcm masuk dalam mimpi and leads to amazing nightmares. satu lagi. tak boleh tgk cerita saw as saya mmg penakut gila. pernah tgk satu or dua scene and sumpah takmo tgk lagi. or cerita yang saiko gila. serius tak boleh.

mata pun merupakan salah satu organ yang menakutkan for me. serius. takut gila nak tgk mata orang. tapi skrg okay dah kowt. ;)

okay. cerita hantu pulak. saya memang penakut tahap taktawu nk describe. even tgk cerita hantu bonceng yang kebanyakan orang ckp tak seram langsung tue pun, i won't dare to watch it alone. seriously. hantu kak limah yang kelakardansarkastik pun tak berani tgk sesorang. serius. so, mmg takkan berani tgk cerita hantu siam mari or korea mari. or cerita santau tahap or apaapa sahaja. apa sahaja yang berkaitan dengan makhluk halus yang boleh tgk kita dan kita boleh tgk dia kekadang sahaja. pernah jumpa hantu ? saya pernah la jumpa. taktaw hantu or apa. tapi dia melayanglayang. HAHAHAHA! and tetiba bau wangi semerbak. warna putih lutsinar. lalu melintas in front on me and my cousin. dahla pukul 12 malam tepat pulak tue dia melintas. masa tu tgh tgk konsert sitinurhaliza kat tv. sejak kejadian itu, saya percaya hantu wujud.

that's all. just wanna kill free time. peace !

Gleek !

initially, i didn't know what to put as the title for this post.

it is the time for holidays. so, i am pampering myself right now until the new year. no good plans for this holidays. just watching movies, download movies, listen to new songs (mostly from Glee episodes), lots of blog walking and tweeting like crazy.

i am a Gleek now. a term that is being used for Glee fans. oh yeah. what can i say. well, i love singing (even though my voice sounds like urghhhhhhhhhhh) *don't dare to say more* . for me, every song has its own story. a story lies behind every song. my tears never failed to roll down whenever i listen to good songs. good songs = touching and meaningful lyrics + fantastic voices. few days back, i watched Matlutfi's video entitled rant cinta or something similar * i couldn't remember the title of the video now*. he criticized some songs, both English and Malay. i agreed to some extend about the lyrics part. but as for me, songs is not about logic. it is all about art. art can be very hyperbole and nonsensical. and yet he is talking about logical sense in songs. he talked about grenade, syurga = bunga mawar and much more. i don't agree much but i respect his opinions about this. no offense to Matlutfi's fans out there. peace ! (^_~).

back to Glee, i really adore the great voices of the casts. they are just unique. and unique. and unique. I AM A GLEEK NOW. i just found out some good songs such as Get It Right, Pretending, Candles, Loser Like Me, Somewhere Only We Know and there is much more. some people said 'songs can express everything'. you may say i am so outdated as i just watched the Glee recently. hihi !

few days back, i tried to drive my dad's car . hurmmm. susah jugak bawak kereta Wira yang besar gedabak nie. err, of course it is bigger than kancil that people use at driving school. i feel it is harder to drive a car yang lebar lagi besar mcm tu. arghhhh. my dad is my driving teacher and he is very strict. arghhhh. he used to scold me when i make mistakes. arghhhh lagi . i never knew my dad can be so strict. perghhh. 2 times trial and dah kena marah mcm apa lagi. sedih. and the best part is he enjoys doing that ! %^&&%$$^*(&%$# !

i hope it is not too late to wish Salam Maal Hijrah to my Muslim friends out there. so, dah ada azam baru ke ? i actually don't have a list of my goals for this new year. i just wanna be more mature. ;) umor dah dekat 21 bhai. my mom said, "dah boleh ada anak dah". so, i really hope i can handle my emotions well and think before i speak or act. or post status at FB or tweet about it. people can judge you by all of these social networking sites. we all know that human can judge others better than judging themselves. and of course, it is always my dream to become a better Muslimah. ;)

so, that's all for now. for my teachers-to-be friends, enjoy your holidays. and December, walk slowly, will ya ? cause i love my holidays ! ;)

Sometimes, all a person really needs is a hand to hold and a heart to understand.

salam perantauan.

salam perantauan dari saya. HAHAHA ! *bajet duk overseas jap* so di sini, nak wish selamat menyambut hari raya Korban . selamat berkorban lah ye.

selamat study juge. ;)

boring entry.

deepavali is coming. so the holidays. so cuti 7 hari nie mmg tak plan bk buat apeape melainkan nak study *studylah sangat* and more surfing, more eating, more playing kiddo games. ahaa, playing baby maker is quite awesome. sangat comel ! serious tak tipu !

and i can't waittttttttttt to finish three more years of studying at IPBA. miumiuu ! cepatlahhh !~~

err apsal mozilla is quite slower than chrome eh ? tp chrome tak best la.

*where art thou, Romeo ? *

sorryentryniebengong.

twitter activated !

dah boring sangat ngan FB, skrg kembali mengemas kini Twitter . mcm best je . hihi !

pretty gals.

caution : this entry contains 100 % anger and 0% EQ. and some bias. and childish. thank you.

i had a thought. still having it in my mind. for Muslim, they must be familiar with this powerful quote.

"kebersihan itu separuh daripada iman".

must be familiar kan ? kalau tak familiar, tanya Mr. Google.

i just have had this feeling and thought.

'beauty gals don't know how to do the house chores'.

euww, mesti ramai yg marah kan. but, i care less bout that.

senang cerita

'CANTIK TAPI PENGOTOR or PENGOTOQ or LOKLAQ.'

okay, experience it for 2 and half years obviously at IPBA lah kan. duduk serumah with those stupid beautiful gals really makes me sick.

they don't know how to clean the toilet. *okay, kerja low class kan.*

they don't know how to keep things in perfect and neat way. *okay, ada aku kesah ?*

they don't know how to make their bed. *whatthehell??!!*

they don't know how to wash the dishes neatly without oil still sticking on them. *goshhhhhhh !*

they don't know how to sweep the floor for the whole room. *sapu tempat diorang je buat ape. mak bapak ko ke yg beli penyapu uh? mati aku ngan bebudak mcm nie.*

they don't know to take care of the cleanliness of the house. *sumpah pengotor .*

i had a roomate. she shared with me.

"bebudak pompuan yang chantek nie mmg pengotor. serius. aku ada experience masa duk asrama dulu. gile pengotor. tapi, bile masuk IPBA, aku dah tak heran sangat. sebab aku dah tawu."

i lived in asrama once. MRSM. i had beautiful roommates and we did the room chores perfectly.

kipas, no habuk is allowed.

tingkap, lagilah. pepagi aku kena paksa cuci tingkap.

katil, perghhh. tak tegang, mau kena perli rapatrapat.

penyapu and penyodok wajib ada di cube A and cube B.

every week kena mop bilik with sabun basuh baju woi !

loker, kemas.

no baju yang lembab is allowed in the bilik.

no rambut is allowed on the floor.

semua ahli bilik digalakkan untuk menegur secara kasar or halus if one of the members yang kotor di tempat beliau.

light off, wajib pkul 11 mlm. sesape yang rajin terlebeyh nak stay up, sila beli lampu study sndri. takyah nak nyusahkan org lain yang nk tidur dengan switch on the main lamp. kesian org uh, nnt tak pepasal dpt cancer sbb tido under light.

sesiapa yang nak dengar lagu, buy your own earphones.

pinggan, mangkuk, cawan, simpan in one area.

baju, tak dibernarkan bersepah atas katil, atas palang katil, or di manamana sahaja melainkan di dalam loker.

baldi, letak bawah katil.

kasut, susun.

tong sampah , wajib basuh every week.

langsir, no habuk is allowed.

febreeze wajib ada for the langsir and katil.

cadar and sarung bantal and everything wajib basuh every week.

benda simple. and, actually, we didn't put the rules as in white or black. or in written or in spoken form. we just take care of the room as well as other members. we were a family. kalau sorang ada masalah, ada 7 orang yang sentiasa support. kalau sorang sakit, ada 7 orang yang tolong jaga. thats the way things were. we ate together, went to the surau together, wasted our time watching niyang rapik at that time, studied together, cried and laughed together.

now in IPBA, everything is the other way round. nak tegur, but i believe that all of us have grown up physically and mentally. kalau dah nmpak orang nak tidur, just get out of her room, stop making annoying noise. agakagaklah nak berFB until Subuh pun with the main lamp is switched on. stop Skyping with other friends who live in the other blocks. hello, budak tue blaja kt IPBA okay ? everyday boleh jumpa, Skype for what ? goshhhhhhhhhh ! dahla memekak like hell ! memekak klu pukul 10 malam takpe jugak, nie pukul 12 pagi oi. gelak mcm org gila, i just don't understand why they did that. klu ngan mak bapak, takde pulak korang nak skype kan. gosh ! another thing, berak everyday. toilet bowl uh nak suro orang gaji basuh ke ? aigooo, simple lah. ko yang berak, ko basuhla . jgnlah bingai sangat ! kalau baju bleh basuh everyday, takkan toilet tempat korang berak uh tak reti nak basuh ? aishh, blaja tetinggi, pengotor rupanya. come on lah pretty gals, kita perempuan okay ? PEREMPUAN !

so, aku sarankan lelaki di luar sana, silalah check gf anda. pasanglah spy ke, ape ke. make sure spy tue perempuan, kang klu spy lelaki, bnde lain yg jadi plak nnt. jgn nanti bila dah kawen,

OHMAIGOD ! bini aku tak reti basuh toilet ! aku yg kena basuh toilet everyday ! WHATTHEHELL !

OHMAIGOD ! bini aku tak reti kemas katil. WHATTHEHELL !!!

*aku tak ckp basuh toilet tue kerja pompuan, tapi, kerjasamalahhh korang lakibini. bapak aku yang sudah beruban pun boleh basuh toilet, takkan korang lelaki yang gagahkacaklagihandsome tak boleh kan?*

okay, nk cerita lagi. i had one classmate. she's very fussy about cleanliness. i don't know much about her room, but im very sure of her cleanliness about the classroom. during prep time, we used to eat some biscuits, sweets and coffee in the class. then, of course lah bersepah bersepai class uh. and then, there was one particular classmate, she was not as clean as her. so, she always left the food under her desk. tempat yang kita letak buku, bawah meja. this fussy girl said, "oyy tuttt, tolonglah bersihkan sikit tempat hang tue. semut hang taw dak nanti (because biscuits are sweet). eiii, pengotoq lahhh ! malulah sikit kat budak laki ! " . and this poor unclean gal said " biaqlah. bukannya aku nak kawen ngan depa pun!". and i laughed. but, i was thinking, btol jugak. mcm mnalah nak kawen klu dri sndri tak bersih kan. mmglah kita takmau kawin ngan lelakilelaki classmates kita, but come on lah. think more. bukan psl kawen sngt, but seriously . it do reflects ourselves.

IT REALLY REFLECTS WHO WE ARE AND WHAT OUR PARENTS LOOK LIKE.

p/s - sometimes, i just hate pretty gals. this is my bias.

kisah tandas

'please teacher, may i go to the toilet ? '

ni lah ayat yang aku guna drpd tadika sampai sekarang . serius aku mmg produk KBSR. dari tadika mmg dah dilatih guna ayat ni. pheww !

walaupun aku almost 20 years old, nk keluar dr kelas pun still gune ayat ni.

'mam/sir, may i go to the toilet ?'

sampai semuaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa lecturers tegur.NO TOILET, it is washroom my dear. ladies lah ! toilet some more !

hihi. so funny .

LADIES WASHROOM LADIES WASHROOM LADIES WASHROOM LADIES WASHROOM .

semua org buat, aku pun nk buat ah !

apa yg hampir semua org buat yang aku pun nak buat nie ? hee, apa lg, ucapan hari raya lah !

okay, so kepada semua, SELAMAT HARI RAYA . MAAF DIPINTA DARI UJUNG TUDUNG SMPAI UJUNG KASUT . kepada semua kawankawan dr aku baby smpailah skrg nie. tak terhitung . kawankawan Tadika Children's Corner, SK. St. Nicholas Convent, SK Mergong, SMK. Sultanah Asma, MRSM Kubang Pasu, Matriks Arau, Perlis (gen 10, A1T4 especially) and finally, maktab terchenta, IPBA . love you olls !

mintak maaf klu ada benda yang pernah menyakitkan hati kawankawan semua. TERumpat, TERlepas cakap, TERcakap dengan direct and lancangnya (MUAHAHAHA!), TERperli, TERcuri, (err, ade ke?) TERambil brg korang tanpa keizinan, TERover, TERminat kat boifren korang ke, TERminat korang ke (whateverlahhh!) , TERgedik kejap (hahahaha!), TERjeling, TERmasam muka, TERbelasah korang ke... err, pernah ke ? semua yang TERTERTER tulahhh !

so, dengan ini, saya ingin mengucapkan selamat hari raya buat seeeeeemuuuuaaaaaaaaaaa kawankawan, lawanlawan, cikgucikgi, jiranjiran, pensyarahpensyarah, kucingkucing dan semua lah . selamat hari raya !

nak raya nak raya !

tengah seboksebok dating ngan Pavlov, Skinner, Thorndike, aku tetiba teringat kat rumah. err, kucengkucengku yang sangatlah comel and adorable and gewdix, mamablack and affin, mak yg dah bising tny bila aku nk balek , abah yg tgh sebuk ngan skype beliau, adek sebuk ngan aktiviti beliau sendirilahhh. dah besaq kan. wehuuu !

nak balik, nak raya ! nk bukak posa ngan sahuq ngan abah, mak, adek ngan kuceng2 sekalian ~~ *eh, tebalik. sepatotnya bukak posa ngan sahuq dulu, baru raya*

okay baru 6 hari puasa. lagi 20 hari kt IPBA. *aishhh*

salah satu sebab aku sngt suka raya ialah dpt balek hometown ! yay !

okay, selamat berpuasa kpd semua. dan SELAMAT HARI RAYA in advance ! ;D

*tak lupa juga doa buat insaninsan yang tersangat disayangi yang kini sudah tiada di sisi. semoga Allah meletakkan insan yg sy sayangi di kalangan ahliahli syurga. sobssosbss*